Notes on How to Improve Self.

1. Stop being too nice for my own good. Be cautious and don't get cheated !
2. Stop expecting so much out of myself. I'm not perfect. Embrace it.
3. Be more aware of surroundings. I know I can't multitask and I'm exceptionally unaware of things. So always take a step back, and sort things out, one by one. It. will. get. done. eventually.
4. Stop being extremely sensitive and sentimental about everything. Being a girl doesn't mean I can't be strong and realistic.
5. Be happy with the things I do on my own. Don't always depend on others to put a tick on 'Chui Nee's happiness'.

6. Paint. more. :)

Crisp Croiss

" What if ? ", is a question that can be applied anywhere, really. Yes, even a croissant.

When Someone Leaves You

Maybe I didn't love you quite as often as I could have,
And maybe I didn't treat you quite as good as I should have.

Little things I should have said and done,
I just never took the time.

But you were always on my mind,
You were always on my mind.



Never have I listened to this song in this light.

Someone dear passed on not too long ago to cancer. A relative that has come over to make ends meet for his family, a relative I never got the chance to spend much time with apart from Chinese New Year celebrations back home when I was way younger, a relative I wished I had the chance to know better.

It was more difficult than I thought to accept the news, especially at this age where I guess I ponder over so many 'what if's' in life. I was overwhelmed by how one person's living means so much to everyone around him. I wonder how would close friends and family get by getting used to that person not being there anymore. I am angry that people have to leave this world at an age that shouldn't be one to leave just yet.

So cherish your loved ones (and I take that quote more seriously now). Mend bad relationships and savour good ones, and just never be afraid to show them you care. Because you really never know how much time is there left to do that.