Its been awhile. Looking at my previous blog made me cringe at how 'immature' I was. Hence the new blog. I've decided. This will be the place where only things that matter are filtered through. More life-changing thoughts, rather than statement of past events. Funny how it is only now that I fully realise why I started writing a blog in the first place; to be inquisitive, to express, to find out more about the meaning of my life (as chessy as that sounds). Here, I will write for myself.
One's journey in life is never ending, never smooth, never what you would wish it to be. I started pondering about this when I found this image today. Amongst all the other beautiful forest pictures of tall trees and filtered sun rays, I still liked this picture best. Because it told a story I could relate to now.
How I dreamed so high, wishing to strive for the passion I have for creating beautiful spaces in a crowd that thought alike. Only to find out that reality is a much harder kick in the face. The typical working environment is just a repetitive cycle of following orders, drawing lines exactly how people tell you to, and complying to difficult people. Where did all the excitement, encouragement, and creative juice that underlay the very foundation of this field go to?
I swore to myself that I will find someplace that appreciated all these little things. I believe there will be places like that, as sparse as they may be. And I'm confident that I will find this place, sooner or later.
Its a tough road, and the future I want right now seems so untangible. But I'm going to do my best, and this is a promise I need to keep to myself to be truly happy with what I'm doing.
